Let Go

Once marketing comes into my mind, I pop into the right one (course) in UTAR,

In 2 years time, the right one (friends) become my soul of living,

The right one colors my blank paper into attractive rainbow and shine it with sparkling stars,

On and off, they sprinkle the plants of my garden with water and grow them up with sunshine,

I’m totally pleased to inform the right one they worth unlimited THANK YOU.

Among the people in my circle of life, I hope to meet the right one as my behalf,

I never be too desperate in my hide and seek for the right one,

I hold a strong belief that the right one will appear at the right time,

However, I am grateful that my buddy (Elle) keeps on introducing thousand of the right one to me,

Even the one (Asher) who shares part of her life in this period of time did the same thing, <giggling>

There are A, B, C, D, E, F…of the right one candidates that upsize my list of friends,

I would like to express an uncountable ARIGATOU to those who are in my list of the right one (friends)!!

After going through 730 days in the dorm of knowledge, I am diverged to choose the right one (job),

I am looking up and down for the BEST right one (job) so that I won’t regret in future,

I turn some states in

Malaysia

to look for the right one to make Vitamin M,

I went interviews with different types of bosses to ensure I choose the right one,

Here and there, my family always be the right one who becomes the candle in the dark,

I always wish to get the right one (everything) as part of my life!!

At the same time, I take this golden opportunity to say KAMSA HAMIDA to all who lend me a hand in the process of choosing the right one!!

**Specially dedicated to my family and friends!!**

Once you become the one I care

Yet you become the one I think

Later you become the one I miss

Finally you become the one who is most important

Then distance makes us seperate into two areas

And yet it seems to be getting closer in my heart

Just because the distance makes me think of you more

However distance prove that you are getting further away

You didn’t make any conatct with me

Maybe it is a sign that everything will be changed

It’s time to let us get connected again

But things have totaly changed

The change makes me do not have the courage to say it out to you

Finally i made the first move

When i heard the truth from your heart

It really makes me to think a lot

And yet my heart is starting to be torn in smaller pieces

My tears from my eyes started to roll from my eye to chin

It keeps on continue for a few moment

Luckly my dearest "sis" came to hold on my shoulder and comfort me

She really understanding and she’s the angel

Who bring me out of sorrow

Really millions of appreciation are presented to her

She’s really my best "sis" in the world!!

It ends up by getting you and me becoming friends once again

Nothing much can be done and it’s time to let go

And jump out of the sorrow

Let the time wash away the sorrow and bring us happiness

May your happiness can come as well

And hope that you know that there is a friend

Who always support you

And may you be happy in your life

And i’ll never give up to search a better one in my life

I’ve been thinking of something tat keep on flowing in my mind for a long long time and hardly get a good sleep at night.I’ve been struggling hard for a few days and the incident begins like tis…..I have a good fren known as A tat he is a nice person and treat me well since i know him when I stepped into KL life for my study.We used to be going out to Yum Cha around nite time and shared lots of "stories" tat happened in our lifetime.We shared a lot of cildhood and school life experiences tat we had during our growing up life time.We even talk about some small secret sometimes.We can even chat till the next morning.We can even playing around the house and chasing each other like a small kid!!We are getting closer for a certain period of time untill we had a trip for few days in a tourist spot somewhere in Malaysia.

Everything had changed after a game called "truth or dare"….My trip members who are A frens as well played this game for a whole night and discovered that I had a bit of feelings for him.My frens didn’t let him know the truth that i falled for him.I accidentally told him tat i falled for him but i know that he did not feel the same way as me.A is remaining my friend now and we have not seen for each other for a long long time since the incident happened that time.Once a while,we go out to Yum Cha together with my fren as well.We started to have chatting time again and i find out tat A is still remaining in my mind.I tried hard to be usual as A is just a common  friend to me but it’s really hard!!I’m so happy every time that i can hear any news from him.I just can’t forget him although it has been for a long long time tat i dun keep in touch with him.

The last time that we met is during a short gathering for lunch in KFC.We used to chat as usual and we just friends.But the moment another fren known as B left us two for washing his hands,I suddenly feel that the special feelings was coming again!!And I keep silent and don’t know what to talk about that time!!I started to get panic and trying hard to avoid his eyes….Since that day,i realised that A is still freshly in my mind and what should I do?Should I let him know or forget about him?

Please help me to solve it and get rid of it…I’ll appreciate it!!

"Did I make a mistake?" This is wat am i alwayz asking myself….it seems like everything is going wrong since i made a wrong step tat morning.I turned up to be another "me" who is not the "original me"…I really changed to become a queit and passive gal since tat day!! I really dun wanna become this anymore, i try out hard to settle every problem tat occurs in my life…this may be the challenge in my life, so I try so hard to make it through!! whoo!! My fren told me tat explaining is no use since I made a "big mistake"…I searched advices from frens and I realize tat frens are really helpful in this moment!! Wat i get to know from them is "time will proof everything and make it a better way out!!"

Yeah!! This is wat I am waiting for…TIME…Juz hope that everything will remain the same juz like the condition before I did the mistake…..